Was any of it true? Gazing at me starry-eyed. In your jehovah's witness suit, who the fuck was that guy? You hung me on your wall, stabbed me with your push pins. In public showed me off then sank in stoned oblivion. Because once your queen had come, you treat her like an also ran. You didn't measure up in any measure of a man. And I don't even want you back, I just want to know if rusting my sparkling summer was the goal. And I don't miss what we had, but could someone give a message to the smallest man that ever lived? Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy? In fifty years, will all be this declassified? And you'll confess why you did it and I'll say "good riddance", because it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden. I would've died for your sins, instead I died inside. And you deserve prison but you won't get time. You'll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars, you crashed my party and your rental car. You said normal girls were boring but you were gone by the morning. You kicked off the stage lights but you're still performing. And in plain sight you hid, but you are what you did. And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive the smallest man who ever lived.

it was legendary,

it was momentary,

it was unnecessary,

should've let it stay buried.

I saw in my mind fairy lights through the mist. I kept calm and carried the weight of the rift, pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away. My spine split from carrying us up the hill, wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill. I stopped tryna make him laugh, stopped tryna drill the safe. I stoppеd CPR, after all, it's no use. The spirit was gonе, we would never come to. And I'm pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free. And you say I abandoned the ship, but I was going down with it. My white-knuckle dying grip, holding tight to your quiet resentment. And my friends said it isn't right to be scared every day of a love affair. Every breath feels like rarest air when you're not sure if he wants to be there. So how much sad did you think I had in me? How much tragedy? Just how low did you think I'd go before I'd self-implode? Before I'd have to go be free? You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? I died on the altar waiting for the proof. You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days. And I'm just getting color back into my face, I'm just mad as hell because I loved this place for so long, had a good run. A moment of warm sun, but I'm not the one. Stitches undone, Two graves, one gun. You'll find someone.

a greater woman has faith
but even statues crumble if they're meant to wait

hand on the throttle, thought I got lightning in a bottle
oh, but it' s gone again

we never painted by the numbers, baby

but we were making it count

Don't call me kid, don't call me baby,
look at this godforsaken mess that you made me,
you showed me colors you know I can't see with anyone else.

Don't call me kid, don't call me baby,
look at this idiotic fool that you made me,
you taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else.



And you know damn well,
for you I will ruin myself a million little times.

 

Querida Veri del 2006, no lo vas a poder creer.

Taylor, vos que siempre me hiciste soñar en grande, gracias por tanto.

14.04.23

❤️

I will leave my heart at the door, I won't say a word,

they've all been said before, you know.

So why don't we just play pretend,

like we're not scared of what is coming next, or scared of having nothing left?

I don't need your honesty, it's already in your eyes,

and I'm sure my eyes they speak for me.

No one knows me like you do,

and since you're the only one that mattered, tell me who do I run to?

Look, don't get me wrong, I know there is no tomorrow.

All I ask is...

"I wish I could touch you again

I wish I could still call you friend

I'd give anything"

There was a time I thought that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong, I must've been out of my mind
So sad you're hurt, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears, I guess that's why they ain't there

Thank God you blew it, I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you, so baby good lookin' out

I used to want you so bad, I'm so through with it

Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now